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Twenty Four
It's my birthday tomorrow (10:45 PM, to be exact.)
It's probably my most melancholy birthday in a while, which makes me sad, because generally I feel that each year of my life has been happier than the last for a while. I'm just sort of feeling at loose ends right now.
I know that this is illusionary. I am working on Polaris, which is the culmination of a 14 year dream! I am headed to China soon.
But I'm getting paralyzed by my doubts again, and that just sucks.
Ah, well. I'm still young, I guess...
It's probably my most melancholy birthday in a while, which makes me sad, because generally I feel that each year of my life has been happier than the last for a while. I'm just sort of feeling at loose ends right now.
I know that this is illusionary. I am working on Polaris, which is the culmination of a 14 year dream! I am headed to China soon.
But I'm getting paralyzed by my doubts again, and that just sucks.
Ah, well. I'm still young, I guess...
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It's my lj, and I'll angst if I want to, I guess.
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--Ben
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I mean, happy birthday!
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--禀先
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I'm not complaining about being old. Just being at loose ends. I'm a just-graduated 20-something. I get to be at loose ends, right? That's, like, what I'm for!
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And take full advantage of being young and at loose ends. Take full advantage of every sweet damn day. Oh yeah.
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Like I said, I'm getting a lot done. Just feeling bad about it...
Thanks!
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Happy b-day!
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I've always hung out with an older crowd, so I read older to a lot of folks. Guess it is just my nature.
(In China, all these people would ask me "how old are your children?" and "where is your wife?" They assumed I was 36-40. The beard probably was what did it.)
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...And I just turned 30, so you're totally still young and with lots of stuff in the works (which is really more the issue).
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Well, happy birthday. It's a good day to be born. Raise a glass to me for whatever birthday activity you do.
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--Ben
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24 is still very young. Enjoy your youth and vigor and stuff.
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What's up with you these days, anyway?
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Wait, I thought birthdays were for musing what will happen in the next year, not the past one....
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