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benlehman ([personal profile] benlehman) wrote2005-09-09 07:16 pm

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So I haven't written a lot here recently. Here's why:

I hand-delivered a copy of Polaris to a great fellow here in Helsinki who, I guess, is a bit of a fan of mine. Anyway, he reads this journal, and made reference to some stuff that I'd done recently.

And damned if that didn't feel wierd. I mean, not that it was anything really personal, it just felt wierd to talk to this guy I just met about things I'd done in the past. It felt way too intimate for a first meeting.

When I started this journal, I made a point of making every post public, because I want to lead a life that is by and large without secrets and obfuscations. I have violated this rule only a few times, for very personal reasons. Ideally, I would like anyone who cares to know about me to know about me.

But, also, there are a lot more people reading this than just my circle of friends and family now. I have published a book and, like it or not, that makes me sort of a public figure. I don't know if I want everything in my life to be a matter of public record if people are actually going to read about it.

So I'm trying to decide between:
1) change my writing in this journal to mostly sanitized things that I don't mind total strangers reading.
2) move most everything to friends-lock, thus locking out a lot of people who I'd like to be able to read the journal from reading it.

Thoughts?

[identity profile] unrequitedthai.livejournal.com 2005-09-09 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Or maybe it's a cultural thing, even.

Yeah, it seems like Internet-culture and real-culture are two separate things, and we're habitually open in Internet-culture, but I know that in my personal real-culture, it's a Big Thing when i can talk honestly with someone about what is going on in my head.

[identity profile] zigguratbuilder.livejournal.com 2005-09-09 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Actually, I was thinking more "Finland-culture", not "Internet culture".

[identity profile] unrequitedthai.livejournal.com 2005-09-09 09:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I was pretty sure that you were; I was running off at a tangent.